Sumbody amputate my left leg plz.
its stopping me from running.

huh? hello? tk make sense langsong?

hehee..
no lar.
my left leg have been giving me probs since last month.

my left knee joints r starting to giv me weird tingling feeling.
especially after i woke up from sleep.
n wen i moved a bit...
Oh mon dieu!!
it hurts like hell.
i hav to wait for 5mins b4 i cld walk.
so imagine if i hav to run wif dis kind of knee.

n now my left foot is oso giving me probs.
tapak in english aper eh?
tapak kaki.
calf eh?
eh jap.. calf lembu kan?
wateva lah!
aniway...
got fungus infection!
zzzzzz...
i tink i got it right after the army half marathon.
dammit.
1st... its the size of my toenail.
now its the size of my thumb!
freaking hell!
n it hurts.
worst than the knee.
mum asked me to go to the clinic.
well, she FORCED me actually.
ahhaha..
i dowan to go doc lar.
waste money.
minyak but but ade peer.
but in the end... i lost.
heh.
she even told me to ask for an injection.
eeeeeek!
nooo waaayyy~
i hav enuff holes in my body plz!
well, the doc gav me a cream n some medicines.
oh ya...
n a lotion.
to wash my feet.
well, the lady at the counter said its like a soap.

kirekan...
lepas buang air...
kalo sabon dabes...
bleh pakai.........


so aniway!
my effing encik told me to clear my leave dis week.
i tink 2 days? or izzit 3?
FREAK LAH!
does dat mean during raya i cant take my leave???
abeh gi exercise lama2... tk dpt off?
boooddooohh.
haiz...
ape lah... si tua tu tgh plan eh.
cepatlah berambos gi australia.
hrp2 plane crash skali ar.
tkyah dtg balik.
hohoho..

ok... last time..
i kinda respected him.
coz he's nice to me.
but den...
i found out he talked bad bout me.


i was in my office...
my frens entered my office.
they juz came out from Encik's office.

A: eh feez! ko mati sak!
Me: apsal? apsal?
A: encik tgh marah.
Me: marah pasal aper? kat sape?
A: kat kitorg ar. ko pon dia marah.
Me: marah kat aku apsal? ape aku buat?
A: ko tak antar Vehicle Status kat dia.
Me: huh? aku dah antar per. pakai email.
A: dia nak kau antar personally. n jumpe dia.
Me: huh? aku baru jer tadi tanyer dia whether aku bleh antar email je. dia kate ok.
A: taaak.. dia suro jumpe personally. abeh tadi dia dpt tahu ko antar pakai email, tros dia marah. dia kate dia nak f*** kau. dia maki2 ko suma sey. dia kate ko mmg nk kena f*** dari dia.
Me: UISH!!
A: lebih baik ko antar dia skrg. dia kate nk jumpe kau.

den i went to his office.

Encik: yes boy?
Me: Encik, u wanna see me izzit?
Encik: huh? no. y?
Me: juz now A said wanna see me bout the status but i sent thru email already.
Encik: oh u sent thru email already? oklah. can already.
Me: huh? dats it?

n i was like... oooooookkkkkkkkk...
i tot he was supposed to be scolding me?


one moment he wanna f*** me.
the other moment, he's so nice to me.

so, dis is life in the army.

hypocrites.
backstabbers.

heh.
liv wif it.
accept other ppl's bad characters.
n continue on...


coz Nobody's Perfect.




Bila Terasa Rindu


Apa agaknya khabarmu di sana?
Di sini ku sedang dibelenggu rindu
Beginikah rasa seksa perpisahan
Sungguh anehnya hidup berasingan

Hati terasa bagai tertinggal di situ
Meskipun tubuh dah jauh beribu batu
Sesaat seperti setahun lamanya
Semasa kau tiada
Apa yang terdaya…

Bila terasa rindu ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh

Jauh sekali hidup di sini berbeza
Beribu kali lagi ku selesa di sana
Tak sabar menantikan detik kepulangan
Namun hingga itu
Apa yang termampu…

Bila terasa rindu ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh

Terlintas di fikiran untuk meminggirkan saja
Semua pencarian di sini
Tetapi ini sebahagian dari pengorbanan
Bekalan andainya hari sukar mencabar


The Girl Who Look At The Stars At Night... Where Is She?




If you love something, set it free...
If it comes back, it's yours...
If it doesn't, it never was.




*yawn*
dammit.
hav to do duty today.
wat the freak.
duty on sunday.


well,
aniway...
i juz wanna make an announcement lah.
sooner or later, ppl will be asking me over n over again.
i'm back to singlehood.
it happened a month ago.
who chose to go separate ways n why...
i wont say it here.
there's no point aniway.


so.. ya.
my aim now is to finish NS.
if possible, try to get a degree.
den work.
pay back wat i owe my family especially my father.
n... dats all lah.


how i'm feeling?
ermm... even if i'm sad...
hav to be happy.
nak sedih2 pon... dpt aper kan.
bkn nyer dtg balik.
so... tawakal jer lah.


now,
i feel like calling sumone juz to talk.
dunno talk wat but juz hav the urge to talk on the fone.
b4 dis... i rarely talk on the fone.
alwayz msg msg msg.
after bein wif her.. suddenly like wanna call only.
lol.
weird weird very weird.

k lah..


k ciaoz!~




so...
the answer of the day is....




I BOUGHT UNDERWEARS!!!


Woooottt??!!


hahaha...
digicam n underwear.
the only similarity is dat...


eerrr....


none?



HEY!
nak beli digicam abeh in the end beli sluar dlm?
hohoho!
So What Gituloh?




k ciaoz!~





NS...

Study...


Work...



Lets do it...

for them.


k ciaoz!~




Today is... EWW Day!~
EWW = Everything Went Wrong
hoho...


well,
went to Mustafa juz now wif qhai, fahmi n asri.
Mr Taufiq is bz wif his girl frenssssssssssss~
hoho..
anw, even numbers r nice.

so...
ya.
aniway!!
asri wanna buy a soccer ball there.
fahmi wanna buy a mouse there.
(for the comp lar. y the heck wld he wan 2 buy a REAL mouse???)
I wanna buy a digicam.
(mine spoil lar. i wan a new one b4 raya. a good one.)
qhai... well.. he juz wanna go out.
haha.

so we went there.
the 1st EWW is....
me n qhai wore the same freaking t-shirt!!!
EEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!~
we both wore brown freshbox t-shirt!
lol.
qhai totally freaked out sia.
eh qhai! elek ar. aku tahulah ko envy aku.. but... dun make it so obvious lar kan.
hehehe...

so we went there...
fahmi looked for his mouse.
coz he juz bought a laptop n he needs a mouse.
so..
pilih punyer pilih punyer pilih...
n guess wat?
he bought a big one.
a big mouse........... PAD!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWW~!~
LOL!
wtf?
starting nak belik mouse.
abeh in the end belik mouse pad?
apesak!
qhai said...
its like.. ur shoe suddenly got hole.
den u buy a pair of socks?????
ahahaha!!
there's totally no logic sey.
den mouse pad nk buat aper sey.
wats the use of mouse pad wen u dun hav a mouse sey!
lol.. ape jer fahmi.
sia2 jer masok NUS.
heh.


as for me..
i wanted to buy a digicam
well, a fujifilm f31fd.
heard its good.
hehee...
so.. we checked it out.
found it.
n wen we looked at the boxes at their shelves... we saw only left ONE!!
woohhoooo!~
was soo excited!
but den, i didnt buy it.
y?
the guy behind the counter took the box.
took the display camera...
n wanna sell me dat.
FREAKING HELL!
the last set is the display set itself!
argh!
so disappointed sey.
*sob sob*
so.. walked away..
n in the end..
i bought sumting else...
not gonna tell.
HEHE..
its another EEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!~ for us!


so.. we went to eat at mcdonalds at fort road.
actually wanna go KFC coz it has free flow drinks.
but its closed at 2am.
we reached there ard 1.45am.
so, we went to mcdonalds.
n MR ASRI, our very own driver.... went AGAINST the traffic flow sia!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!~!~
wtf??
aku tahu lah ko ngantok kan...
tapi... kasihanilah orang blakang.
aku blom kawen tau.
jgn cenggini ar.
aku tahu lah sana tak ramai org.
tapi... tkyah lah tunjok kegagahan ko kan.
he didnt go against the traffic once...
but he did it 3 times!!
or izzit more?
ntah lah.
woah.. luckily i'm back at home safely.
phew.

had a great time talking crap wif them.
eventhough i didnt get to buy my cam.
nvm.. gonna try 2moro.
hehehe....



well, for u guys out there...
here's a question for u!

WHAT DID I BUY AT MUSTAFA INSTEAD OF A DIGICAM?


sape fandai.... dapat choc!!!
(qhai, asri, fahmi or anybody who knows these guys are not included)



k ciaoz!~




SO wat i've been up to dis few weeks?

i was kinda involved in the Army Open House.
well, not really involved IN the open houz but... got sumting to do wif it lar.
as u all know, i'm in jurong camp rite.
the open houz was in Pasir Laba Camp (which is beside Safti MI which is beside my camp)
so, our camp was made like a CARPARK!
zzzzz..
n so.. me n some of my frens hav to take care of the freaking carpark.
ass.
standing under the freaking hot sun for 5 consecutive days (thurs till mon).
n nooowww... MY FACE IS UGLY!!
sunburn all the way!
freak!
skins peeling off.
now my face has 2 skin colors.
one dark brown... n the other... eerrr... FREAKING DARK brown!
there's a line on my forehead... coz i wore beret on those days.
but the best part is dat... we get free bus rides!!
we need to guide the new bus drivers bout the route to pasir labar camp.
so... apolagi kan?
cabot ar!!
hey... standing under the sun marshalling those cars in the carparks is freaking hot k.
but at least i get to see some cute faces.
babies i mean.
:P

the bad thing bout touring around the camp was the bus drivers themselves.
only some ar.
most of them are ok.
but some of them hav ATTITUDE prob sey!

got once... i asked the bus driver...
Me: uncle.. later u goin pasir labar izzit?
(Cibai-ing) Uncle: DEN WHERE ELSE?!

fucker.
i say nice2... n u shouted at me.
attitude prob.
i hate ppl wif attitude prob.
i spoke to them nicely n i get this kind of attitude.

n at the end of the day.. they need to see my warrant officer(Encik) to sign their logsheet.
*logsheet(a paper dat shows how many hours they worked dat day)
dat cibai-ing uncle suddenly turned into Mr Cinderella!
so nice... so polite..
even prepared a torchlight for my Encik!
wtf??
n dats not all!
b4 he started work, on the logsheet, it was written from 1700 to 2100.
but wen he wanted my encik to signed it... i noticed dat it changed to 2200!!
he changed it sia!!
n the change is soooo obvious sey!
eh plz laaa... kalo nk tipu pon... tipu tol2 ar.
cheating is a skill k.
if u dun hav it... better dun do it.

aiyaa... uncles these days.
heh.

so dats y i hav 3 days off.
from tue to thurs.
spent mostly at home coz my foot has kudis?
maybe bcoz of my boots
n oso bcoz i stand for too long for the past few days.
its kinda getting worst.
can i get to the hospital bcoz of dis?
HEHEHHEE!!
BESTNYEEEEEEEEEEERR!!

but kan...
I'M SO DARK NOW!!
everybody said dat!!
muka mcm org ade skin cancer!
sob sob..
no wonder nobody wanna go out wif me anymore.
i'm getting uglier now.
heh.
oh well, ape nak buat kaaaaan...
dah nasib cenggini.
suma bz.
holiday pon bz per!


k ar...
gtg.



wrap it?
no?
hmmmmm...



k ciaoz!~




So bored...

got 3 days off but spent all of it at home.
wat the hell kan?

dah lar.
ngantok.

Back to camp!~



I really miss her... =(